The last few weeks have been as hectic as I can remember. And, I'm not firing on all cylinders. Winter blues and workplace blues have set in, and that's made the demands of the week even tougher. But, I abide, and we move through it.
The last two weekends have been taken up with work stuff. And, there have been some emotionally trying, draining moments. One was losing a colleague whom I wish I'd gotten to know better. Too late now.
It leads me to think on how I keep myself so distant from folk. The walls are still there. And, I'm not sure how to "be" around straight people - mainly straight men. I've kept myself at a distance from most men, over the years, because I was afraid someone would figure me out. And I hadn't quite figured me out yet. Silly.
It will take time, practice, patience, etc. Ugh.
Of course, I'd like to get to know more gay men, too. Mr. Right, where are you?