I'm still adjusting. After so many years of a "double life" of sorts, it is a challenge to bring those lives together. And, I realize how my "lives" need some congruence. This is a challenge. I am feeling that the once-hidden life can't go on the way it did. I'm out, now. And, I am out. So, no pretending, no hiding, nothing that might endanger my job. It's a call to some new, honest, authentic behaviors.
This brings up a lot of new questions: How do I feel about getting into a relationship? What about monogamy? What about playful friends?
I'm going to take the time to discern this new life, just as I've taken the time to discern how, when, in what way to come out.
In working with my "constituents" (or "customers"), it is painful when some of them cannot accept me as gay. For a (very) few, I am suddenly not good enough. Well, so be it for them. I've listened and tried to be non-judgmental, non-anxious, and not get angry. Even though some have expressed some old, out-dated, terrible things - all the old stuff about "recruiting", immorality, suggesting that I chose this. No logical, fact-filled argument will convince anyone. It is, in a sense, a matter of conversion of the heart more than the mind.