I am SO tired of being "needy," of struggling, of feeling frazzled. So much energy gets focused on just getting through the day, I don't seem to get much else done. I'm not doing my job very well. I am glad my organization can keep right on going, which it has. I have been able to get done enough that things are running. But I am running down.
I waked up at four a.m. with some real anxiety stuff running through my head. Things with family, things with me, feeling cornered, hopeless, trapped, just wanting to run away.
I haven't, of course. I didn't. I'm here. Some prayer, quiet, prayer, and some more prayer, got me focused enough to get going today. One day at a time. today. just today.
Prayer for me is not about "asking God" anything in particular. It is about conversing with, being in touch with, realizing the presence with me. And so, I have.
As a dear blogger friend commented to me, from something learned in his past, "God does not save us from drwoning only to let us die on the shore."
Today. I will make it today.