When have I let things go by this long with no posting? I can't remember. Forgive.Life has been very stressful, and I have been in the pits. Making it through last week was like slogging knee deep in muck. But I did it. And I am alive.
All that which I have not done, or done wrong seems to haunt me and hang over me to such a degree that all done well evaporates or seems inconsequential. Time off this week has helped me catch up on sleep, but not wellness.
Things seem to be piling up in a way that is suffocating. Ur-Spo's list gives hopeful things on which to focus. And, as my mother always said "Nothing is so good, or bad, that it lasted forever." Today there is life. I am grateful for that.
As Julian of Norwich said "All shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of thing shall be well."
I am trying to listen.
7 comments:
TB:
All shall indeed be well, but as you point out, you may have to wade through an ocean of muck first.
The catch is holding on long enough. But things do often turn around when you least expect them to -- pick a Psalm!
Hang in there.
T@C
I'm glad to see that you have returned to your (bear's) den, where we can lend an open ear and a supportive shoulder to lean on. In light of Troll's suggestion above, how about Psalm 34:4? :-)
You once quote a wonderful prayer that I have taped to my monitor at work. In that prayer you gave me a wonderful gift. May I give it back to you?
. . . . . in the Name of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ be loosed from the manifold voices that bind your heart from praising freely, be freed from the foul demons that accuse your very life and cause you to doubt God’s friendship, for they are bound forever this day that you might walk in the newness of unending life, for you are washed by Living Water and by the Blood of the Lamb.
Many people who do Twelve Step work discover a great burden lifting after they have gone through the Fourth and Fifth. Whether you are doing Steps as such or not, looking into that process with someone who understands it may be of significant help.
And, as I may have said here before, (echoing your mother's remark), it says it came to pass -- not that it came to stay.
Or as a good Catholic teaching brother told me, God didn't rescue you from the shipwreck to have you die on the shore.
I agree, all things shall be well.
Sorry that things aren't feeling great. How distracting and debilitating! That can be a drain on the energy and interest that the best things in the world manage to evoke from us.
Tell me it will all be different soon for you.
Or as my mother always said, "This, too, shall pass." I never really wanted to hear it when I was in the thick of things, but it was true nonetheless.
Peace.
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