Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Surely, we begin again

Thanksgiving week. This will be the first of the "big" holidays since my wife and I separated, and it will be wierd. I'll see my girls for some of the time, but I won't be part of our decade-old family tradition of going away for Thanksgiving. I will really miss that but hope they won't miss me too much. I don't want it to be a downer for them. But, of course, I have no control over that.

I'll go visit my father and stepmother for turkey, and that will be a nice visit, if I don't stay too long. My stepmother is great! She is much closer to my age than to my father's (10 yrs. older than I, 20 yrs. younger than he). She's the best wife he's found yet (she's #3, but #2 didn't last long at all). She doesn't let him get away with any shenanigans. He starts his control stuff, and she lets him know right where to stop. Amazingly, he straightened right up! He is older now (84) and his health ain't what it used to be. And, my conversations with him won't have much depth to them. If he starts in on me about anything, I'll just cut if off and leave the room. All those years of therapy have counted for something!

Sexual Sobriety didn't last as long as I wanted. It got away from me this weekend. I got away from it, actually. And, I'm really feeling a sense of "hangover" from it. The powerful neuro-chemicals that surge through the brain have a profound effect. And, their absence can leave one feeling a bit strange.

But all is not lost. We begin again.
The picture is of my daughter and me looking into Bent Creek.

9 comments:

john said...

That is all is really is buddy, one step at a time.

Michael said...

The secret is getting up one more time than you fall. I seem to recall SoneOne saying that the just person falls seven times a day...

Lemuel said...

Best wishes for your Thanksgiving - may it be the start of new and happy traditions for you - and best wishes for your new beginning.

Steve and Warren said...

Happy Thanksgiving

Jeremiah Andrews said...

Happy Thanksgiving. Nothing is lost and you have everything to gain. Now maybe you can start your OWN tradition for your holidays and be good to yourself.

The only way is up Baby...

Don't sit on the pity pot for loss of old ways, build new ones to take their place. It's your choice to grow or die like the wilting leaves fallen on the cold ground.

Know that I think of you daily.

Jeremy

Bill said...

I hope you have a good Thanksgiving, and that you are good to yourself!

Ur-spo said...

happy thanksgiving
if you can't have tradition, have an adventure!

Sooo-this-is-me said...

Every day is a new step, begin again to be a better person. OK, mushy stuff out of the way, gee come on Joe you've got two good hands! ;)

Steven

daveincleveland said...

now, my dear friend, is the time to start new traditions......hope your holiday was great ...mine was ok...different, we did not go anywhere.......just stayed home and ate in total silence.....ws weird not to have a bunch of people around....anyways hugs and thanks for the hugs......it means alot