Friday, June 18, 2010

Joy & Sadness - and PRIDE

Rainbows should never be missed.  This photograph is a rainbow that appeared over our fair city last week.  Never, ever miss a rainbow.  Happy PRIDE!

and in other news . . . .

There's a lot of sadness in me.  Still.  Oh, but there is some joy, too.  I don't want to over-emphasize the sadness, nor do I want to dismiss it.  With me, as with most of us (I guess) there are competing emotions that go tearing around our hearts and souls.  You can't figure me out easily.  Well, I can't, anyway.

Tomorrow is the day i leave on the Big Trip.  I'm excited and apprehensive - it's that sad and joy mix-up again.  Maybe it's more fear than sadness?  Hm.  Sad to be alone.  Joyful to be out.  Sad not to know all the details of the trip.  Joyed to live with spontaneity.

The joy is far easier to live with than the sadness. But sometimes the tears just need to come forth.  I let them; never a real problem for me.  Except when it is.  No, the sadness will not pull me into a bottomless well.  though I sometimes fear that.  No.  I will make it through.  And some joy will show up.

It also helps being ADD - I see something shiny and I'm off in a different direction.  Look! a rainbow.

7 comments:

behrmark said...

There are worse things than rainbows to chase. Godspeed and Behr Hugs!!

Cubby said...

I wish I could understand your sadness better. Didn't I hug you hard enough?

Hope you have tons of fun in NY and PA and all the other stops you're making (you have more stops than that, don't you?) Safe travels. xoxo

Ur-spo said...

everything in your new stage of life is an adventure now.

Lemuel said...

In our life together Mrs G and I got to the point of facing our journeys into the unknown (both geographical journeys and experiential journeys) with neither joy nor sadness, but with excitement. We would tell each other that we were off on another "adventure". My greatest joys came on some of those adventures. My greatest sadness is that I did not do more.
I know there are some folks in the north who are looking forward to your journey with both joy and excitement. :)

manxxman said...

I think you hit the nail on the head when you substituted "fear" for "sadness", fear holds us back way to often. Go forth with that rainbow firmly planted in your mind and have a wonder experience.......we want details (all of them....well some of them at least).

Birdie said...

I think manxxman is onto something. What would you do if you weren't afraid? Picture someone doing it. Now picture yourself doing it. Now do it. I know it's not easy, but I also know it's possible. That second sentence up there is my mantra. Have a great time, sweetie.

Ice John's World said...

Have a safe and fun trip!