So many years of so much fear have kept bound up in one way or another. It's been much grist for the therapy mill! Going somewhere, traveling on my own, being adventurous - none of these things have come easily or often. Oh, my wasted youth! Then, I wallow in my inabilities to venture forth. I'm not good at planning, or even just thinking ahead; And I'm too cheap to spend much (usually because I'm too broke - as is now the case).Fear can be such an insidious, strangling, invasive vine - tendrils creeping in to parts of life and thought, undetected, till we try to move or stretch. Then, we feel that catch, that thing that grabs, unbalances, trips us up, tips us over. Soon, we just freeze up, stop moving, stop trying.
But I shall not be bound (he said, with a quiver in his voice, not sure he believed his words). So, I shall fake it till I make it, then.
Though still trepidatious, I'm venturing out, a bit. There is some family component to part of it - that's the impetus for the trip there -ah! but the return trip is mine! For reasons various and sundry , I have to go to upstate New York (Schenectady) to deliver someone to something. Then, I am on my own!
As of Sunday afternoon, I am sprung free for a bit. One blogger friend is offering hospitality for the trip back! I'm so excited to be able to meet him and his partner! Hoping to line up another get together. Anyone between up there and down here, I'd love to get together with.
If you're along the way (basically Albany, NY to Asheville, NC) and we could visit, let me know. I'll only have a few days, but I'm excited to get away on my own. Almost never ever happens. Maybe this will be the start of something. ("Yes!" he said, giving no hint of his equivocations, "I shall begin again.")
I feel so brave - well, for a few minutes!
14 comments:
There's a certain regret that I live on the wrong coast. Enjoy your trip and adventure. Be well and be safe! Behr Hugs!
Happy for you! Good for you!
Congratulations! It sounds like it should be a wonderful trip. Go forth and be!
You and I have much in common my friend. Look forward to meeting you.
Have a great time!
I'm very happy you're breaking out and taking this long drive. Too bad I'm not anywhere along your route. Have fun in NY.
What is it about Albany that everyone keeps making pilgrimages there? Sean's list of bloggers whom he has met is longer than my dick! Perhaps at some point Greg and I will take a drive up that way too.
Have a fun and safe trip!
Looking forward to being even a way stop on your journey. Relax, enjoy. There's a mighty friendly world out there filled with love and friends.
Meeting bloggers is a blast. (I've met thirteen so far.) You're going by New York City, which is jammed full of 'em. I can personally recommend that you look up Tony, Patrick and David. They're great guys. Tell 'em Birdie sent you.
Howdy. Followed your blog recently and just wanted to leave another congratulatory message. Hope you have much fun!
Greetings, friend,
Even though you are faceless to your readers, you are a delightful person to many who follow your blog. I know that Sean and Jeffrey will take care of you. They are my friends of many years, so I hope they become your friends, too.
William
I guess Lexington, Ky. is probably out of your way on this trip but you're more than welcome to stay.
I love a good road trip! I drove to Columbia, SC today, a 75 mile trek for me. Took a circuitous route home and wanted so much to keep heading away from home! I'm itching to drive. I envy you your adventure. I hope it's a good one.
I hope you have a very good time.
Being brave is a matter of practice, keep going.
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