Sunday, November 06, 2011

Here, and not

A rough patch of work has kept me exhausted and weary.  It has been hard to focus and get through it all.  Forgive my absence.  Maybe it's time to end blogging - but then, maybe not.  I'll hang in a bit longer and see how it goes.

I'm in the kind of work that involves a great deal of emotional labor.  Not much heavy lifting or physical stuff, but a lot of emotional work that can be very exhausting.  And, with that, it's not something that one can "leave at the office" very easily; and it involves a schedule that is anything but "9 to 5."

I've taken little time off and certainly not two days together.  Even days off end up having just one little thing with work.  Others do it, I'm not the only one in this line of work.  I just don't seem to handle it very well, sometimes.  I'm looking to take a few days off next week - three.  But what will I do with them?  I can't afford much, but I'm going somewhere.

And there's not much other news about anything - or anyone.  Am I capable of handling a relationship?  Entering in to a relationship?  Maintaining a relationship?  I'm having my doubts . . . . . .  But I'm still hoping.  Cheers, till next time.

10 comments:

behrmark said...

I hope you do not stop blogging; I enjoy reading your thoughts. As for this post, I'm sending big hugs your way.

JustAMike said...

I'm sure no one has to tell you to look after yourself before you look after anyone else. Maybe a few days of "nothing" will help you to find your way at this time. Wishing you all the best!

Mind Of Mine said...

You probably don't realize how blogging puts things in perspective. If you need to take a break, don't worry. We won't go anywhere.

BentonQuest said...

Take care of yourself and know that life is proceeding as it should. Big hug sent your way!

Sous le Chêne de Mamré said...

I am happy of your decision to continue your blog

Jeremiah Andrews said...

Bear, Why you so down? Me thinks you need to tell some people to go fuck themselves. Do you need to change something to feel better? You've not been happy for a while and that distresses me.

You need to have some JOY RISING in your life ... Stay on the blog. It is part of your life purpose. And you would be sadly missed.

I think a change is going to make things better for you but you need the courage to do something BIG for yourself. This shitty situation is not doing you any favors.

Don't be so sad and angry it's not becoming.

Jeremy

Ur-spo said...

yes, do not stop blogging.

Cubby said...

I hope you can relax and clear your mind on your days off. xoxo

Java said...

Hey there Bear. I'm thinkin' about you.

I don't post often anymore, but I am glad I have my blog for when I need it. Lots of my blog buddies have cut back on the blogging, but I'm always glad to see a new post when I can get around these parts of the interwebs.

JC said...

Christians can act so un-Christ like sometimes. We can be the biggest hypocrites when we forget who is really in charge and get all pumped up with sanctimonious selves.

With Advent and Christmas Season looming, do take some time off to recharge yourself. I wish you were closer to Texas. We have a place on the coast where you can really ‘Get Away from it All”… To use the cell phone, you have to climb on the Garage roof sometimes – away from it all.

Peace Brother..