Friday, February 19, 2010

Lent Out

Generally, all is well. Though there is still adjustment to being out.  Friend says, "be gentle with yourself."  I'm trying to take that advice to heart. 

I'm up to my ears in stuff to get done.  I'm navigating carefully at work so as not to be too flagrantly "out."  By that I mean, I want to give folk time to absorb it all, to see how things turn out, to see where the chips fall (so to speak).  As the saying goes, when the shit hits the fan, it is not thereby evenly distributed.

I know, many may think, "Why bother. Let'em deal with it."   Well, that's the way I am.  And it's such a different kind of job.  And, I have come to like getting paid.

Weather has been a pain, but it's warming a bit now.  Snow is still all around but melting.  Today it got to 45 degrees and feels like Spring!  I (and others) are enjoying it!

Taking time off next week to visit with friend N.  He flies in on Monday and here from a few days.  I have to work some, but taking most of the week off.  I'm looking forward to some relaxing time.

There is so much (so much) in my life that has changed in the last few months, let alone the last five years.  When I step back, I can hardly fathom it.  Perhaps now, I'm expecting too much too soon.  All in good time, my pretty.  All in good time.

When the student is ready, the teacher appears.  Trust.

Trust.

13 comments:

Michael Dodd said...

When the student is ready, he sometimes discovers his own heart and spirit are his teachers.

Ultra Dave said...

Glad to hear it is working out for you. There are no deadlines for this, move at your own pace and in your own way!

Neil said...

Nice picture. :-) Yes, I look forward to the visit. Meanwhile, hugs from Palm Springs!

Lemuel said...

"Let the day's own trouble be sufficient for the day." Someone wise once said that. ;)
"You've come a long way, baby." Someone once said that, too. :)
...and, btw, *nice* pic!

Java said...

I find it hardest to take my own advice.
You've got a lot of wisdom. Let it work for you.

hugs! Enjoy your week with Neil.

Ur-spo said...

Trust, indeed.
All will turn out well enough.

BentonQuest said...

Trusting is so difficult. But it is what we need to do. I wish I could say something that would make this easier, but I can't. But I can tell you to look at your life and see that God has come though in the past. Time in the wilderness is difficult, and there will be temptations, but know that you are not alone in the journey. God is there with you and for you.

Steven said...

You're definitely in a "dynamic" period of your life. Trust what your gut tells you. Enjoy the warm weather and in three weeks daylight savings time begins. Enjoy your time with your visiting friend.

Jeremiah Andrews said...

Now we learn how to coast on into life. Letting the speed bumps pass and letting the problems let go and let god. We are powerless over people, places and things. So that should let you ease up on yourself.

Good friends to visit, good food to eat and good times to be had...

I say, let go and enjoy.

Jeremy

Ice John's World said...

Give yourself some time as well when you try to give other people time to adjust. Enjoy the new acquired freedom and new world.

MICK said...

Like the melting snow around you revealing that gorgeous North Carolina scenery, this other side of you will continue to reveal itself to the people you work with in due time. Be 'Joe, who happens to be gay' as opposed to 'Gay Joe'.

And know that we are with you!!

Birdie said...

In a totally different realm, I understand the agony of waiting for others to act. Let us wait for our respective expectations with great hope and full acceptance things are unfolding as they should.

Maddog said...

In no time at all you'll be happy that you've made this decision. There is nothing worse than living a lie.