- Today, I’m having a difficult time with “church,” and even with “Christianity.” In the midst of all the shit, I know there is a core of truth, Truth. But it can be difficult to find, and very hard to explain or entice others to hear it, or see it, or experience it. But I know it is there, in spite of (seemingly) overwhelming evidence to the contrary.
- There is a thin veneer of Christian belief in the Church and in this nation, this so-called “Christian nation.” It is a veneer of being nice, as long as you behave like me. It would be even better if you looked life me, too. Yes, the thin veneer is there, but it has been used so cruelly to dominate, so misused to subjugate. The true joy, freedom, comfort, and challenge of the Gospel rarely show through.
- Conformity does NOT mean maturity, and vice versa. We get this sooooo wrong, sometimes.
- Sometimes I still wish to be a regular, old, everyday, straight guy. But that only happens when I see the cute dad with mom and the kids in the park, etc. I never think that in bed. Is it all about appearances?
- I’ve learned that it is true: Never judge you insides, based on someone else’s outsides. Appearances are always deceiving.
- And again, you have heard it said: What I most dislike in others is usually what I most dislike in myself.
- I want to fall in love. With a man. I don’t want to be a slut.
- I have never been able to focus long enough to do a meme. I have been tagged a few times but never managed to follow through.
- My closet is getting smaller and more and more uncomfortable. I pray for the patience to hold out (in) a little longer, until I can tell my children, at least.
- Honesty is the best policy. I so long to tell my children the Truth, that I am gay, and I love them, and I love their mother (as best I know/knew how) and it will be OK. How can I expect honesty from them, if they don’t get it from me? This causes me great pain.
- An excerpt from words by the Rt. Rev. Gene Robinson, Bishop of New Hampshire, to folk at the HRC offices in Washington, DC, as roeported at the My Gay Spirit website.
“In some ways, for some reason" Robinson continued, "it is almost harder to come out as a SPIRITUAL Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual or Transgender person than it is to come out as LGBT! Asking an LGBT person to go back to church - to
reconnect with their spirit - is like asking an abused wife to go back to her
husband. We have to change LGBT people's PERCEPTION of spirit. We
CANNOT relinquish the spiritual realm to those who oppose our equality. It
is more important than ever for LGBT people to come out spiritually."
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Out of the randomness
My mind is whirling, whizzing, and boiling today, as is my spirit. So, here are some random, if incomplete, thoughts:
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